it's been a while.

so this is extremely ridiculous.. 4:18am and i am wide awake. my sleeping arragements have been a little unpredictable these days. middle of the afternoon and i can't keep my eyes open.. and this is the unwelcome product..

however, i have realised with surprise that i have neglected this little space of mine for almost four months and i figured what better time to do something about that than the middle of the night when my thoughts are most assuredly misplaced and unorderly? the funny thing about it all is that i am sure i have lots to say. i mean, i know i do. and a lot of the time, i think it is very important. but usually, i think a little bit more and realise that it really isn't. there's a lot more stuff out there that is a lot bigger than my simple thoughts. but i have decided that i will share them with you anyways. whatever helps you sleep at night, right? ..maybe this will be just the thing for me.

in only two days, the fall semester will be over and final exams will be overtaking the minds of the young adults in university. stress levels will be through the roof and breakdowns are a sure thing. but this year, i'm feeling pretty at ease with it all. and its not because i think i will ace everything, because i am pretty confident that i wont.. but something that's really been on my mind these days is just sitting back, and taking an objective view of life, if you will. i will clarify that this is not a passive view, i remain active in decisions and all other aspects of my life, but i kind of feel like i am learning to understand a glimpse of a bigger picture. i have always been aware that it existed, but never fully grasped it myself. it's kind of a beautiful thing.

i am also very excited about the holidays. this year i have a whole week off to go home and visit with my family and friends, two of the most important aspects of my life by far. lots of sleeping in and visiting and nice smells and slippers and blankets--our farm house is cold in the winter. i will be back in regina on the 28th, working and hanging out. if you would like, i would like to hang out with you. coffee? crib? these are two things i very much enjoy. but there are other things as well. i would like to try skating again this year, so if you promise not to laugh at me, i would love to skate with you. i'll probably need to use a chair. or a hockey stick. that would look way cooler.

well, i should really try and sleep. night. xo