gibberish.

i didn't come on here with anything to say in particular; but i figured i'd shoot the shit and see what happens. you may possibly have to bear with me..

back in regina: a city that is very dear to me, perhaps only for the people it hosts. i'm feeling both the pull to get back on the road, and the feeling to settle into routine (at least loosely), and it's killing me being stuck in the middle. these days i just chill at the college house watching battlestar galactica, and ponder on job possibilities while i slowly tackle my resume.. of which i only intend on handing out early next week, as i have a date with my friends cabin sunday/monday. i've bumped into some sweet people: new acquaintances and old. i'm very excited to re-learn regina, as it applies to me a year later. new job, friends - referring both to those which i have only just met, and those which i knew a year ago who have inevitably grown and changed. my social anxiety is fading, but i am still coping with serious stacy-withdrawal. i've enjoyed a fabulous weekend in winnipeg at my cousin's wedding, danced all night with the spandiards and fam. and since relocating, i've seen some pretty great shows: foxwarren, molten lava, matt goud, andy shauf, the wooden sky (best show). very happy that the weather has warmed up, danelle's in town, and my dearest katie will be around for a few days! in a nutshell: i'm feeling fine, a little bored/anxious to do something, but otherwise stoked on life and friends.

adjusting.

tomorrow marks two weeks at home. it's impossible to explain what i've gone through during those 14 days. a rollercoaster of emotions.. nothing beat the excitement of walking through that airport terminal knowing that my family was waiting for me on the other side. that night, the college house hangs were amazing. but by the end of that night the only word that i could use to describe my feeling was overwhelmed. by the end of the weekend i became overly anxious and actually had terrible anxiety from the thought of running into familiar faces while i was downtown. some unnecessary pressure i'd put on myself for some unknown reason.. i escaped to the farm for a week of garden veggies and hangs with the relatives. came back somewhat refreshed, but still with a feeling of urgency, like this wasn't going to last. there was need to keep up a hectic pace. i have finally reassured myself that with my fund situation, i'm hardly getting out of regina, nevermind the country.. so i will be seeing a lot of these people in the months to come.

my daily routine seems far too lonely without the solid company of stacy. it's been an action-packed few weeks, but when things slow down i can only think of how much i miss her. i lucked out with some pretty sweet friends.