since i am a renowned procrastinator, i only feel a little bit bad about writing a new years blog on january 22nd.. however, resolutions are tricky because i know that all my limitations and downfalls of 07 are still there, they're not going to disappear just because the year has changed. however i think it's important to question things, and therefore to be continually changing; not just setting oneself up to fall every twelve months with the accumulation of a years worth of goals and failures..
all this being said, i am going to attempt a resolution. i have realised how amazingly flawed i am. (no, this is not the first time i've realised this). but one major thing i've been dealing with right now and for the past while is how i am an extremely terrible communicator. now: anyone who has ever found themselves in a conversation with me ever, knows that i have no problem articulating words at an excruciatingly fast rate. that is not the problem, not even a little. my problem is that i don't know how to ask the right questions. i don't know how to know people. i don't know how to let people know me. maybe i'm just scared of looking like an idiot. but i would rather gain some truth, some honest insight in another human being rather than playing up the "hey hows it goings" and never really getting anywhere. so. i guess this is my resolution: i want to get to know you. i want to go out for coffee and ask questions. i don't want to discuss the weather or what the person walking past was thinking when they got dressed.. i want to know what's going on inside your head, and i want to not be afraid to ask questions. to think a little more before i speak. to ponder things.
the most honest conversations i've had are with strangers. i want to change that.
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