chia-like, i shall grow

i just got back from one of the sweetest weekends i've had in a while. it involved a roadtrip-dance-party with magda to calgary where we got to chill with amazing people that i hadn't seen in far too long, meet rad new people--and--i got to see say anything, twice.. that has been a long time coming..

i thought seriously about dropping out of school and being broke for the rest of my life. i think that's what will happen eventually, but i will most likely stick through this semester.. i thought about how "living with no regrets" is pretty much impossible. it's human condition to think 'what if'. if you're doing everything in moderation, well, sometimes excess is just more fun. doing everything you want, well, there's got to be regrets somewhere in there. and doing nothing, well that's a little obvious. so i'm struggling with just being content. i mean, being a university student really isn't that bad, really. i learn really cool things, and i think that learning and reading and being stimulated is important. but i think this can all be achieved outside the restrictions of a school and right now i'm itching for so much more than that..

plans with stacy for our trip in the fall are under way, but i don't want to think of that as my "next" adventure. i don't want to always be looking ahead to the "next" thing. i'm alive every day. and i want to have something that gets me pumped every single day. maybe you think that i'm looped, and maybe i am, but i think that life should be more than just zombie-stepping through routines day in and day out and waiting for the next big thing. so if you've figured out how i can achieve this, share your secret.

today i celebrated valentines day with some greasy burgers and beer and two sweet dudes. yeah thats right, two..