window watching.

i've been sitting in front of the window. it's cloudy outside, and i've been watching the trains come and go from the station; imagining all the people travelling in and out, interacting and acting out their lives. it's really quite interesting to have a God's eye view of all the little humans and how they affect and effect each other.

things have been continuing to progress here in van.. meeting lots of people, working.. the house is slowly starting to feel like a home.. not mine exactly yet.. but it's somebody's, and i'm in it.

things are changing. too fast for my liking or sanity. i feel momentarily stabilized and like i'm finding my footing in this city, and then just as quickly the rug is pulled out from under me and i'm free falling in self-doubt and uncertainty. i'm not exactly sure what my next move is going to be but there are several decisions very pertinent to my happiness that i'm going to have to deal with in the next few weeks. it's like a quarter-life crisis. good thing my best friend is showing up in the next few weeks.. and that mom promised she would call me soon.